It has been 5 years since I have legitimately talked to my father, neither have I bothered keeping in touch with him. Today my brother’s girlfriend received a picture of him with my father and showed it to me. I have instantly felt something I have never felt before, a feeling of dissappointment and regret. I was on the verge of tears but held it in and realized that I seriously fucked up neglecting someone who has been there for me growing up despite the problems that we had.
Portrait of Joel